I've been getting rid of my baby things when Kael is done with them. This weekend I gave away my swing & bouncer and Erik is like, "Well I guess we're done?" We kind of joke about the kid situation.
I've always thought I'd have 3 kids. I came from a family of 5 kids and thought that was too many, so 3 seemed good. Erik came from 4 and thinks 4 sounds good, but he is understanding and knows I do 90 percent of the work, so he is ok with 3.I know it's too early to say for sure, but I really want to be done. I've broken down a few times lately because I feel like I'm spread so thin that I can't give my kids what they need. Kire is so easy and good that I don't hardly pay him attention because he does everything himself. Jack gets to hang out with me all day, but Kael needs so much attention now that I feel like Jack never gets my full attention. And he's such a stinker and is trying my patience constantly that I lose my temper with him. I feel guilty that none of my kids is really getting what they need, how do families with more kids do it?
Then part of it is selfish, I know. I want to have time for myself. My kids are so fun right now, but I want there to be an end insight. Maybe if Erik made more, or was home more, I would maybe think I could handle it. But I know myself and know I cannot. 3 kids is a lot!
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I just put that on facebook, I am overwhelmed with 3 kids!!! i too have a busy husband, bishopric, work, teaches school at night, I do almost everything and I feel pulled in so many directions. I feel like all I do is yell and they are just kids. Its so hard. I too feel I am done. I haven't given anything away but would love too! Good luck girly, being a mom is hard!
I think that 3 is a good number as well! I started out wanting 5. Then 4. After Olivia I considered myself DONE! She was a little naughty! But as time has passed I think I could do ONE more and one more only. At least one more time trying for a boy. But either way, I think we're stopping at three! But I think it will be 3-4 years before we even think of having another! I may be selfish, but oh well!
To be honest 3 kids was a really really really a hard adjustment for me mine are 2 1/2 yrs apart and it was good and bad in some ways.
When we had our surprise 4th it wasn't an adjustment we are already crazy I guess lol.
I when you are done you are done and you know it. After my 3rd in didn't want anymore mostly cuz I thought it would be another girl lol and I was upset when I found out I was Preggo but I knew he was coming even though I didn't want another.
Your oldest will be in school if younhave another which is a big help just pray about it ;)
It's so much easier when they get older... I was SOOO done, but now that my youngest is 3, I could easily do another. Just don't close any doors. That being said, I still think we are done:) I am too selfish and love working/$ too much to have alot of kids :)
Maybe we can talk about it more when we go away! But give it some time and give yourself some credit. Your job isn't easy. And it's not selfish to want time to yourself, it's healthy and ultimately better for your kids. Let me know when- I can't wait :)
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